Where I'm From: A Poem By Myself

Where I’m From: By Abigail Rose

I’m from music,

from play tiaras and scented candles.

I’m from a Mickey Mouse bank,

and the smell of fresh-baked cookies.

I’m from the apple tree in the yard,

to my secret place in the woods.

I’m from good times and bad,

all mixed together.

I’m from my family and friends,

and a soft bed to sleep.

I’m from Foreigner and Def Leppard,

to Skillet and Nickelback.

I’m from ballet, and marching band;

from pointe shoes and bibbers.

I’m from my family at home,

my family in band, and my family of “bffs from now to the end”.

I’m from hugs and tears,

from youth group and classes.

I’m from crisp-paged books,

I’m from more bookmarks than I can count.

I’m from all this and more,

I’m from all my memories collected in a butterfly box.

Someday I’ll look back, and remember where I’m from.  

She Is: A Poem By Myself

She Is: By Abigail Rose

She is guarded & tough,

yet sweet & gentle.

She is quiet & reserved,

but can be bold & loud.

She loves her family,

but takes her anger out on them.

She hates attention,

but enjoys random compliments.

She’s stuck in a book,

but she has a life too.

She knows what she wants,

but doesn’t ask for things.

She is called pretty,

but she doubts is sometimes.

She pretends to be a princess,

but also acts like a rockstar!

She is Abigail Rose Gurley,

named because of it’s meaning, and an ancestor.

She is me,

and I wouldn’t want to be anything else.

This is a poem that I wrote a while back for my ELA class. I hope you guys enjoy!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful

Abigail Gurley <3

My Youtube Subs!!!!

Hello again! I wanted to give you guys a list of some Youtubers/Youtube channels that I like!
Here we go:


# 1: Button Poetry. They post some AMAZING poems, that really inspire me. https://www.youtube.com/user/ButtonPoetry


# 2: YOUTHSPEAKS. Similar to number 1.
https://www.youtube.com/user/YOUTHSPEAKS


# 3: Vsauce. He posts some pretty radical science stuff!
https://www.youtube.com/user/Vsauce


# 4: Rooster Teeth! I can't stress enough how AWESOME they are! They do Let's Plays, Achievement Hunters, they even made an animation called RWBY. It has a whole fandom, and just... DANG! Check it out, for sure!
https://www.youtube.com/user/RoosterTeeth


# 5: Markiplier! He posts all sorts of game playthroughs, and whatnot! Overall, he's HILARIOUS!
https://www.youtube.com/user/markiplierGAME


Now obviously, this isn't even CLOSE to a full list. I just wanted to give you guys a few choices that you probably haven't heard of! If you want some more suggestions, feel free to contact me!


Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

My Youtube Channel

Hey!~ So, in case you didn't know: I have my own Youtube channel! I sing covers, and post them for you guys to see. I haven't made a video in awhile, but that's because I don't  have access to my phone right now. (I use it to record) Here's the link: https://www.youtube.com/user/theatergirl325
Feel free to check it out, but PLEASE don't laugh! >/////////< I haven't really told many people about it, but I'm attempting to open up more. Anyways, I have about 6-7 videos up right now, and I'll post more whenever I can!
As always,
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

Freedom Of Speech: A Poem By Myself

Freedom of Speech
By: Abigail Rose (Me)


There're a thousand words to say,
But I just can't seem to find the courage.
How can I speak out,
When I'm too scared to be alone?
All my life,
I've had people by my side.
If my words cause them to go,
What happens then?
Do I just sit back and not say a word?
Is that really the person I want to be?
No; It isn't.
I want to feel free to speak my mind;
To let the words spill from my mouth.
I don't want to be some coward,
Who hides in the back corner.
I want to STAND UP.
To STAND OUT.
I vow to be my own person,
Even if it means going with the unpopular vote.
I've realized something:
I can always find new friends,
And I have a few who will never go.
So what's wrong with disagreeing sometimes?
Absolutely nothing, that's what.

I got my learners!~

Hey guys! Sorry for such a long break! I've been working on redoing my room, and I just haven't really thought about posting, to be honest. Anyways: I got my learners on March 25th! (My birthday ^_^) I've only driven on the road once, but my dad is teaching me whenever he gets the chance. I'm really excited about it!! It's so surreal, though. I can't believe that I'm actually old enough to drive! It's definitely something I'll have to get used to! Also: I'm going to try to post more of my poems here, ok? I've been told that I'm really good at writing poetry, and you all seem to enjoy them, so I'll post them as often as I can!

If you haven't noticed, I kinda abandoned the whole daily-outfit thing. My phone charger doesn't work anymore, and it's what I was using to post them. :( Once I save up enough to get my new phone, I'll start it back up! I'm trying to stop waiting so long in between posts, I promise! I'll attempt to post each day, even if I don't feel like it. Of course, some days I may be in a bad mood or sick, but I'll try to at least post something, even if it's short. Even so, thanks for keeping faith in me! I love seeing that you guys are still interested in reading my blog! It's really inspiring that I actually have people who WANT to hear what I have to say! Just...thanks SO much! Anyways, I love you guys!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

Confessions

Hey, guys. You seem to all like my poetry, so here ya go:

Confessions:

When you look at me, what picture forms in your mind?
Is it one of hapiness, or one of fear?
If I'm really being honest, I'm not sure which one I'd rather show.
Do I let you see my hopes and ambitions?
Or do I hand you my secret fears, torn to shreds and covered in tears of long ago?
Which would you want...
The bubbly bright girl I usually am,
Or the demon who sometimes controls my very essence?
I'm not even sure that I /can/ show you.
After all I've lived through,
How could ANYONE possibly understand the fears I struggle with each day...
How could they see that even SPEAKING OUT ties my tongue and my heart in knots...
I'll never be the same person I was in my childhood...
At least...not until I finally break free of the chains that capture me so effortlessly.
For now, I'll always make sure that I don't seem vulnerable to people.
I'll still harden my heart, just to keep it from breaking.
I can only think of one person that I trust completely,
And only one other who has been told my story...
Surprisingly, she doesn't judge me. She doesn't try to patronize me like SO many have. She just...takes it as it is. She didn't ask me to tell her more, or threaten me.
I am...more than a little shocked by that.
Lately, I've been so worried about being judged, that instead of being open about things, I hide them away. I stumble over my words when I feel threatened or nervous...which is much more often than I'm proud of.
To my readers, I seem confident.
But secretly, I have my doubts, just like you all.
I'm not a perfect person, but...
I'm trying.
That counts for something, right?
I'm so, so glad that I have this..
My escape from the world.
I can speak my mind, without worrying about how I look to everyone.
Silly, I know.
I'm not good with talking to people about how I feel,
But here...it's easier.
When I can be seen, suddenly the words I want to say just flow from my fingers.
I'm invisible, yet bursting with color.
Thank you, for noticing me...
Even when I'm not actully there.

This has been on my mind for a while, but I just now got around to actually posting it. I just wanted to show that I'm not perfect, but I do my best. I hope this can help someone out. :)

Be A Butterfly!

Hello, everyone! :) I've been so busy lately, that I had completely forgotten to post anything! Many apologies, my friends! To make up for it, I'll make this post much longer!


So, guess what! For my Lit. class, I'm writing a 4-page research paper about bullying! :) I'm really excited about it! As far as I know, nobody else has the same topic as me! Wish me luck, everyone!
Also: This coming up Tuesday, my band is going to LGPE! (Large Group Performance Evaluation) Basically, we play our songs for a panel of judges, then they score us & tell us how we can improve. :) I'm really excited about going!


For those of you who've checked out my new blog, you know that I'm working on a new story. :) I'll post it as soon as possible! (The URL is outcrowdlifewriting.blogspot.com!) Check it out!


I wanted to remind everyone to be themselves. I know I say it a lot, but I'm serious. Be PROUD of who you are. Don't let others determine who you are, or what you do! A couple of my close friends are struggling with this, and I'm sure others are too. Think of it this way: Even the most beautiful butterflies, never see their wings. Just because you don't see how special you are, doesn't mean that you're nothing. We all shine in our own way, so don't be afraid to let your light glow. Be the type of person that you admire. Don't just sit in the back row, blending in.


As always, my fellow butterflies:
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3 <3 <3