Wassup!?

Hello once again, everyone! Lately, I've been too busy too post, but I'm doing what I can. I figured I should give you all an update on what's been going on in my life. Let's begin, shall we? ^_^

Well! For starters, my mom recently had total knee replacement done. It's been a few days, so she's back home now. I've essentially been the mini-mom, as well as her daily assistant. It isn't as bad as it may seem. I kinda enjoy just hanging out at home. I ended up reading an entire book just today! (The name of the book is Paranormalcy by Kiersten White; It's the first book in a series and I would DEFINITELY recommend it! Especially if you like paranormal creatures, cute couples, drama, an evil ex-boyfriend, and a SUPER interesting plot) I've also recently started up playing Lego Batman 2: DC Super Heroes on Xbox. So far, I like it a lot! My little brother got it for his bday, but I decided to go ahead and give it a go. I'm a sucker for a good lego game. (Honestly, I could go on for hours about how much I love this game; just ask my best friend Bree)

In other news, I've developed a crush on this guy in my class??? It's nothing serious or anything. Currently, we're friends. I kinda like him, but he seems pretty clueless about it. If nothing else, I've found a really cool guy friend. I won't say his name (a lot of people who read my blog go to my school), but I will say that he's really cool. >////<  (If I mention him again, I'll call him NGC (new guy crush)) OKAY MOVING ON~

The other day I had portfolio night! It's basically a night for all the honors English kids to show off what they've written that yet. I loved it last year, but it wasn't all that good this year. Why, you ask? Well lemme tell ya: my portfolio somehow fell out of the box without anyone noticing. I spent over half an hour thoroughly searching each table, but eventually I gave up and went home. Needless to say, I was more than a little pissed off. They found it the next day and apologized, but it just wasn't the same. They're having it passed around in different classes to get feedback, but the thing I like about portfolio night is that people give you feedback because they WANT to. I don't want people to only respond because they have to, yknow? I'm just glad that it's over, so I can stop stressing.

In other recent news, I moved (kinda)! Over fall break, I moved from my old, small room to my dad's slightly larger office! He moved his office stuff into his bedroom, and my brothers went from sharing a room to each having their own. I love it! The only downside is that my bed for the time being is an inflatable mattress with a leak in it, and I have to keep a heater running to stay warm. </3 On the bright side, I have two big windows, access to the porch, and a lot more space! I haven't completely set up, but when I do I'll try to upload a few pics of stuff. I plan to actually decorate and make my room cute. ^_^

As you can probably tell, I'm making up for my lack of posts by writing a lot. I'm going to try to post some (happy) poems up soon, as well as some short stories I've been working on. Wish me luck!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abbie Rose

Long Time No See!

     Hello once again! I know I haven't posted in a while (2 months!), but I've really been going through a lot lately. I was depressed for a while, and lately I've been SO busy with marching band!          

     We're up to 3 practices a week, since we have a competition the weekend after next. Our band director is putting us through "conditioning" to get us into shape. At each practice, we have to run 3 laps around the football field. I swear, I have never been more exhausted! Although, I know that in reality it's helping me get toned up, and that I'll appreciate it later on. 

     As some of you may know, I got my hair cut! Here's a few pics:

I seriously LOVE my new hair! It's so much easier to manage now! Also: I got an iPhone 5! :O I used to be totally against them (android's for life!), but I'm actually liking it! It's the pink (I say light red) one! I would've preferred a nice purple or minty green, but i'm more that okay with it. I'm seriously addicted to magic piano and dots (one and two)! 

     In other news, I took my PSAT today! It wasn't nearly as ad as I expected. It actually wasn't bad at all. There were a few things that I need to study over/learn, but overall I think I did a good job. I'll try to start being more consistent with posts! More tomorrow!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful

Abigail <3

Poems of Mine

Hello all! I know I don't normally post on Thursdays, due to band practice, but I wanted to make up for the fact that I didn't post on Wednesday. I know that's a "if I have time" day, but lately I've been getting back into poetry, and I really wanted to post some of my recent writings. I hope you enjoy! (Btw: All these poems are written in Iambic Pentameter) I had to write one (the one entitled My Bullies) for Ela, but the rest I just did for fun. Either that, or someone challenged me with a short amount of time and a random topic. It's pretty easy to tell which ones are which.

My Bullies by: Abigail Gurley

I know my battle scars will never heal,
I fear that on my knees you'll make me kneel.
My anger does build slowly, this I know,
and in my heart, my passion it will grow.

Now gone are days in which I'd sit and cry,
Goodbye to days I wished that I would die.
You know that now I won't bow down to you,
The words I say are many, yet a few.

By now I'm finally happy once again
You monsters were my demons, now you're slain.
You used to haunt me daily, and in dreams,
But now I know you'll never hear my screams.

And so to you I say farewell, adieu,
You'll sit in solitude wishing you knew.
I'm free, you see, I'm not controlled by you.
I have but one more phrase to say: we're through.

Champion by: Abigail Gurley

Our peace and solitude is rather rare;
It seems that nowadays we're in despair.
We need a hero NOT with golden hair,
But bravery and strength to lead us there.

They'll come someday; I know it to be true,
But when, I must confess, I have no clue.
They'll ride in as a champion, brave and blue,
Forever free, now this I swear to you.

You've heard their stories, now please just believe;
I hate to say that now I take my leave.
Fear not, my friends, for I will soon return,
Please read these words if ever you do yearn.

Our champion now will be here any day,
But until then I know we'll be okay.
Alas, my friends, for now I say no more,
But in your heart, I know my words you'll store.

A Car Poem by: Abgail Gurley

Toyota does drive on and pave the way,
My Honda does lead me on through the day.

Garbage by: Abigail Gurley

The garbage smells like death and fills the air,
I see that now there's garbage everywhere.


Thanks for reading! Hopefully you liked them, even if a few were a bit goofy. Expect another post tomorrow!
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful <3
Abigail Gurley <3

First Official Post!

Hey guys! Last week, I posted my new schedule, but I didn't follow it at ALL! I'm so sorry! I ended up being too busy all week. Since it's Monday (a new week), I'm officially starting it now! Since I missed several posts, I'll try to post multiple upload today. I'm also going to work on writing things in advance.
For those of you who read/check my blog daily/routinely, thanks so much! I'm happy for all the support that you're giving!

That said, I'd like to start a new feature: Q & A! Whenever you want to ask a question comment here, or on Facebook. (I post everything to my personal fb AND to my fb page) You can also do it through Twitter! Either tag me in it (@abbie_gurley) or use #outcrowdlife. Either way, I'll check, and answer it on my next post! I'll even do a segment where I pick my favorite question and give the winner a shoutout! Don't be shy! Just make sure your question isn't inappropriate.

That's all for now!
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

Beauty Poem

Beauty by Abigail Gurley

'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder'

What a load of crap, in my opinion.

If you go by this, I'm only pretty if others think so. 

I used to believe this, as many do.

Nowadays, I'm smarter. 

Everything has it's beauty, even if it isn't in their appearance. 

Beauty can be found in your mind, your thoughts, and at the deepest level?

Your heart.

Even the most vile of people can have beauty.

Never forget, evil can be beautiful to.

Beautiful, yet deadly.

As they say,

Dark doesn't always mean evil,

Light doesn't mean good. 

Now, go.

Spread your beauty into the world.

We need it desperately. 

Official Posting Schedule!

Hey guys! Due to the amount of homework I've had to deal with lately, I haven't posted in a while. But never fear, my dears! I'm finally announcing... my new posting schedule!!
*DRUMROLL PLEASE*

MONDAY- Yes!
TUESDAY- No, I have Band Practice
WEDNESDAY- Maybe. Depends on how much homework I have to do before church.
THURSDAY- Nope, Band Practice.
FRIDAY- Yes, usually. I'll have football games on Friday, but I'll post if possible.
SATURDAY- Yup!
SUNDAY- Maybe. Depends on what all I need to get done.

That's all for now! I'll to put up something else before bed, if I have time!
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

Almost Time For School! (Short Update)

Hey guys! So I know I haven't posted in a while, but I just got done with Band Camp! It was so awesome! I actually had a really fun time and made some new friends too! (Plus I got to see my band director in a dress, so that was pretty sweet) School starts Friday, and I promise that by the end of the first (full) week, I'll have a posting schedule made. I know, I know: I've been promising that for a LONG time, but I'll get it done. Anyhoo~

My laptop works again! My brother Sam tried to turn it on and suddenly it started working again! :0 I'm so happy! I've really missed blogging from my laptop, since it's so much faster. It'll definitely make blogging funner and quicker. Yay!

Anyways, I'll write more when I can. Just wanted to give a quick update!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful <3
As always,
Abigail Gurley :)

Band Camp & New Beginnings

Hello all! So as I'm sure you've noticed, I went on a bit of a hiatus for a bit. I didn't really think about posting, and I was just so busy that I never found time to do it. I promise that I'll start posting more consistently! Band Camp started today, and it lasts for 2 weeks. :D After that I only have ONE WEEK before school!!! :0 Once school starts and I figure out my schedule, I'll make a list of what days I'll be posting on. I'll try to post as often as possible, but it all depends on when I have Marching Band practice and whatnot. Anyhoo! On to more exciting topics!~

Band camp has officially begun, and I'm so happy! Today was the first day, so I was a little out of it. I'm out of practice, so today I got a little wore out. This week it's 9-3, and next week it's 9-9. Our show is going to be amazing!!! We're playing a tribute to Journey & Queen. (You 80's fans will recognize those groups!) The music sounds fantastic! The only problem is that Clarisse (my clarinet) is messed up. ;-; I'm having to rent a plastic one while we send her off to get fixed. Wish me luck!

As some of you may know, school starts in 3 weeks! I'm finally a Sophomore! I'm super psyched, but at the same time I'm not ready for summer to end. Ya know? I'm looking forward to seeing my friends, but then again.../homework/. Can I get an amen? (Kidding XD)

All that aside, I hope you're doing lovely!~ Have a great rest of Summer! Oh, and this school year? Challenge yourself. Don't go with the flow; surf your own wave. I've said it once, and I'll say it time & time again: Normal is boring. Be who you really are. Don't hold back; you're only going to live your life once. In class, pay attention. Your teachers mean the best, even if you disagree. If nothing else, respect that they spent years in college just to be able to teach.

As always,
Stay Strong, Strong Beautiful :)

Abigail Gurley :3

Father's Day!

Hello dears! I know I haven't posted in a while, and I am so sorry! This past week I was off at Camp Cherokee, a christian camp. No electronics all week, and no distractions. It was awesome! I'll tell more about it in my next post! For now, I have some poem-writing to do. Since I already wrote a poem for my mom on Mother's Day, I'm going to do one for my daddy, too.

Father's Day

Starting the very day I was born,

you have always held me in your arms.

You have kept me safe throughout the years,

even when I really didn't deserve it.

At times I've cried, kicked, and screamed,

but even then you loved me.

I can't even put into words how awesome I know you are.

From now until the end of time,

I'll always be your little Daddy's Girl.

I may not get to spend as much time with you,

but I love it when I get the chance.

I don't know much about cars and trucks,

but that's ok, because you teach me.

All my life,

I've always looked up to you.

I've admired your strength, your intelligence,

and your determination to never give up.

I've seen you healthy, I've seen you sick,

but even at your worst, you're still a great dad.

Happy Father's Day, Daddy

I love you!

<3

Happy Mother's Day!

Hey everyone! So, as you surely know: It's Mother's Day! I hope all of you are sending love to your Moms, getting love from your kids, or just honoring Moms in general! For today, I'm writing a letter for my Mom, that I'm sharing with all of you. too.

A Letter To Mom

Even with all the times I've messed up,

you still lift me up, with a smile on your face.

You fill me with advice,

even when I don't want to hear it.

No matter what the time,

you always listen to my problems (No matter how small).

For the past 15 years,

you've shown me what it means to be a woman, a mom, a friend.

At times we fight,

but in the end we make up, and I know you still love me.

I'm not a perfect daughter,

but you insist that I'm perfect to you.

You call me smart, beautiful, courageous,

brave, bold, awesome.

For this,

I can't thank you enough.

Even when everyone else gives up on me,

you help me to grow.

Happy Mother's Day,

to the best mom I know.

<3

My Life With Mental Illness (3, To Be Exact)

Hey guys! So I know I'm super out-of-date on my usual posting schedule! Eventually I want to make an OFFICIAL schedule, so that you know exactly when I'll be posting. Until then, I'm so sorry, but I guess you'll just have to keep in check. (Or, ya know, visit my Facebook page). So today, let me talk to you about...MENTAL ILLNESS. Not the most pleasing topic, I know. Don't worry; I promise I'm not gonna go on some boring rant. I'm just gonna tell you how it is for ME, and hopefully some of you can relate. To start with, let me tell you what all I've been diagnosed with. I have OCD, Tourettes, and ADHD. Let me go ahead and tell ya, this is NOT a fun combo; not at ALL. 
For those of you who don't know, here's a little info about each:

*Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions), or behaviors that make them feel driven to do something (compulsions).

*Gilles de la Tourette syndrome is a condition that causes a person to make repeated, quick movements or sounds that they cannot control. These movements or sounds are called tics. The condition is commonly called Tourette syndrome.

*Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) is a problem of not being able to focus, being overactive, not being able control behavior, or a combination of these. For these problems to be diagnosed as ADHD, they must be out of the normal range for a person's age and development.

Now that that's all sorted out, just know: it SUCKS. 

OCD makes me have to have all my stuff lined up just right, and also stacked with largest things on the bottom, and smallest things on top. I always have to fix my books and whatnot when I sit or go somewhere (even my backpack is arranged like this).Tourettes (as I call it) makes me not only do weird tics, I also MIMIC the movements/sounds of others. In other words, if you're the one jerk who constantly shakes your leg, fixes your hair, or makes repeated sounds: I hate you. =n= Not only do I do tics, my OCD makes me repeat them OVER and OVER again. It drives me insane! Last but not least, ADHD. My ADHD makes me talk a LOT, and it also makes me less focused in class. Not only that, but if you talk to me you'll see that I tend to change subject about every minute or so. I guess the main problem with having the Big 3 (what I  refer to them as), is that most medicines can't help.
When I was younger, we tried a TON of different medicines to try to help me. At one point I was taking somewhere around 10 different ones at a time. Basically, a medicine for ADHD makes me emotionless & zombie-like, whereas a medicine for OCD or Torettes does the opposite. I remember my first day of 4th grade (at a new school, to boot), they started me on a new medicine called Adderall. They told my mom that 'my appetite would me lower than usual'. Well forget that! Not only was I not the slightest bit hungry, I actually had to go sit in the bathroom for the whole lunch-time because the smell/sight of food made me nauseous. All during the day, I was shaking uncontrollably. I don't just mean a small twitch; my ENTIRE body was shaking frantically. The worst part? They wouldn't even let me call home. They could see how badly I was reacting, but they told me to wait it out. Needless to say, I had a pretty rough first day. The rest of the year, people thought I was a little insane. That's when I decided: I don't start new medicines during school; I don't take medicine unless I know EXACTLY what it does; I only take a couple different medicines at a time. My days of being over-medicated are OVER. Currently, the only medicine I take for my 'Mental Illnesses' is Clonidine. Thanks to my wonderful combo, I have HORRIBLE Insomnia. A lot of my friends think I'm just a night owl, but really I don't have much of a choice. Clonidine is a pill that helps me to go to sleep. About an hour after taking it, I'm tired and ready to go to bed. Before I started taking it, I would randomly wake up during the middle of the night; now I sleep great & I'm able to wake up for school. :) 
One of the big reasons I wrote this is so that you all learn one thing: If someone has a Mental Illness, or they have Tics like me, DON'T YOU DARE be mean to them. From experience, I know that they already have a pretty rough time; please please PLEASE don't make it worse. If you want to help, ask them what you can do. With me, I mostly just ask people to be patient with me. Yeah, sometimes my need to always even out my sandwich bites is annoying, but my friends accept it. They don't get mad when I stumble over my words, or when I just need my own space. (I forgot to mention: I'm also claustrophobic) So: Be kind, be loving, be supportive. :) As always, thanks for reading <3

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3
  

My Facebook Page

Hello all! I just realized that I haven't told any of you about my facebook page! I made it a few days ago. It's the OFFICIAL page for my blog. I'm planning to use it for keeping you all in touch with upcoming posts, & to even post some exclusive content!! Here's the link: https://www.facebook.com/outcrowdlife !
Please please please, like it & share to your friends! I want to get my blog out there, so that I can reach even more people. I love the fact that I can help people through what I write, and I think that this page will really help me gain more readers. As always, I thank you so so so much for your love and support!
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful!
Abigail Gurley <3

Reader Appreciation Letter!

Dear Reader,
     Holy crap I love you so much! Thank you for your support of me and my blog! I had no idea that so many people actually want to read what I write! That really gets me excited! In fact, sometimes I feel like /crap/, but then I log on and I see all these wonderful comments from you guys! It just...rocks my world, ok? You have no idea what you mean to me. I'm just so glad that you can read something from /me/ that inspires you to try new things. I may not be the 'coolest cat', but you guys still listen to me and get encouraged by my blog. That's...EPIC to say the least. I mean, I know I tell you this all the time, but I really mean it. My fellow Out-Crowders are one of the big highlights in my day.
     I can't even think of what to say now, other  than I LOVE YOU. I love everything about you, Reader. Your goofy laugh, your smile, your awkward selfie poses, /everything/. To me, your imperfections make you who you are. Sure, you may have scars, but scars tell the story of your struggles. A flawless person doesn't exist, so flaunt your mistakes. Just like I learned in Marching Band: If you mess up, own it. Don't pretend to be perfect, it's ok to have off moments.
     Well Reader, that's about all I can think of to say. Just remember, stay true to you! Flaunt what you have, and don't be afraid to stand out. I'll admit, I struggle with that. It's not easy, but it IS possible.


Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3 :) <3

Rookie Camp, Great Books, and Confidence (It Makes Sense, I Swear!)

Hello! So, lately my life has been /very/ eventful! Not only was today the first day of Rookie Camp (Training for marching band), but I also just finished writing a book of poems for Lit class. It wasn't too bad, but I have to say that I /really/ hate being told what to write. It makes me feel like I'm not allowed to express myself the way I really want to. I have to make the words follow a certain beat, I'm told whether or not they're supposed to rhyme, and I'm not even allowed to write about certain topics. Now, if you tell me to write you a story, I can do it, ok? If you hand me a promt and say 'write a story following this list of rules' I'm not going to write to the best of my ability. Enough of the rant. I don't want this to turn into a list of things that bug me. If you want to know certain things though, contact me! I'll answer just about anything!


In other news, I've started 3 (that's right, 3!) new book series! They're great, and I definitely recommend them! Here are the titles:


1.Glass House by Rachel Caine (The Morganvaille Vampires-Book 1) Trust me, it isn't cheesy like it sounds. It also isn't a romance novel. It's more of a mystery/sci-fi novel with a good amount of plot twists. Check it out!


2. Fallen by Lauren Kate (The Fallen Series-Book 1) Another great book! Kinda creepy-ish but also a bit of a love story. Pretty wicked, if I do say so myself.


3. The Red Pyramid (The Kane Chronicles-Book 1) I'm on book 3 now, and I'm loving it! It's more of a middle-school aged book (technically), but I really like it! It follows 2 siblings along this journey with the Greek & Egyptian gods and goddess' and whatnot.


Anyhoo, I hope you guys enjoy them as much as I do! They may not be my top favorite authors, but they're definitely on the list. (And it's a pretty long & diverse list.)


Next topic: Confidence. I myself struggle with this, and I'm sure I'm not the only one. Earlier I was watching the news and they did a study that says 50% of our confidence comes from our DNA, and the rest comes from re-wiring our brain to make more confident choices. Well, I think that's not entirely true. Sure, our genes play a part of it, but it also depends on the way you grew up & what happens during your life. Bullying victims have a very low confidence usually, no matter what genes they have. If we're all honest, rude comments hurt us. Just because someone doesn't show it, don't assume that it didn't bother them. Also, just because a person has a confident appearance, that doesn't mean that they don't have insecurities. I'm /certain/ that they do. Even the most popular girl has to worry about how she looks everyday. Sometimes, I'm happy that I'm not a 'popular' girl. If I was, I would have to spend every hour making sure that I wear the right clothes, say the right words, give off this flawless image, all while acting like it's easy. There are some girls in my classes that wake up an hour or more before me, just to get ready & fix their hair & make-up just right. If you asked them, I'm sure most of them would say that they would rather be late to school than show up not looking their best. I can imagine how they feel. If they don't look right, they'll get mocked. Sound familiar? Don't get me wrong, I don't care for most popular students (mostly because they bullied me), but I respect them. To get back on topic, don't let some silly study determine your confidence level. Be your own person, set your own goals, and climb your own mountain (no matter what size it is.) If your mountain is passing a test, go for it! If your mountain is becoming president, GO FOR IT! Don't be held back by a lack of confidence. Face your fears; it's the only way to get past them. Trust me, running only makes the next time worse.
That's all for now guys...
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley :)

Catching up (Again)

Hey! So a friend of mine brought to my attention the fact that I haven't written anything in quite some time! I just want to say I'm incredibly sorry! With eoct's right around the corner, I'm so busy with homework and church that I just keep putting it off! My sincerest of apologies goes out to all my faithful out-crowders!

So, I know it's a bit late, but: April Fool's!! I hope you guys had a great time pranking your friends!! My friend Bree made me a 'brown E'. She's such a dork!! Anyways, I had a generally good day. No screamers, fake ask-outs, or anything of the sort!! I hope you all faired as well as I did, if not better.

As another topic if interest, in my ,it class we are making poetry books! I get a chance to write my heart out & to share it with my class. I'll be sure to post them up here, so that you all can enjoy them too! I'm really happy about it! I have to write several different forms/styles, so you'll get to see some variety! ^_^

Ok. Time to get serious. Tonight at church, we talked about what we think our talents are. Not what OTHERS say they are, but what we PERSONALLY think. For me, I said blogging. People say I'm a great singer and whatnot, but...idk. I guess I'm just not as confident about myself as I should be. Not gonna lie, I usually don't expect to get ANY compliments, so random yet sweet ones really lift me up. I realized that I heavily rely on the compliments I get. I shouldn't, but if someone says I look sil,y or dumb in something, chances are I'll never wear it around them again. I'm working on it, sure, but after what I've been through it's difficult to say the least. Wish me luck, everyone. I really hope and pray that you all have a better life than I've had. Live to your fullest, do what YOU want to do, and don't let ANYONE (not even yourself) hold you back.

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley :)

Where I'm From: A Poem By Myself

Where I’m From: By Abigail Rose

I’m from music,

from play tiaras and scented candles.

I’m from a Mickey Mouse bank,

and the smell of fresh-baked cookies.

I’m from the apple tree in the yard,

to my secret place in the woods.

I’m from good times and bad,

all mixed together.

I’m from my family and friends,

and a soft bed to sleep.

I’m from Foreigner and Def Leppard,

to Skillet and Nickelback.

I’m from ballet, and marching band;

from pointe shoes and bibbers.

I’m from my family at home,

my family in band, and my family of “bffs from now to the end”.

I’m from hugs and tears,

from youth group and classes.

I’m from crisp-paged books,

I’m from more bookmarks than I can count.

I’m from all this and more,

I’m from all my memories collected in a butterfly box.

Someday I’ll look back, and remember where I’m from.  

She Is: A Poem By Myself

She Is: By Abigail Rose

She is guarded & tough,

yet sweet & gentle.

She is quiet & reserved,

but can be bold & loud.

She loves her family,

but takes her anger out on them.

She hates attention,

but enjoys random compliments.

She’s stuck in a book,

but she has a life too.

She knows what she wants,

but doesn’t ask for things.

She is called pretty,

but she doubts is sometimes.

She pretends to be a princess,

but also acts like a rockstar!

She is Abigail Rose Gurley,

named because of it’s meaning, and an ancestor.

She is me,

and I wouldn’t want to be anything else.

This is a poem that I wrote a while back for my ELA class. I hope you guys enjoy!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful

Abigail Gurley <3

My Youtube Subs!!!!

Hello again! I wanted to give you guys a list of some Youtubers/Youtube channels that I like!
Here we go:


# 1: Button Poetry. They post some AMAZING poems, that really inspire me. https://www.youtube.com/user/ButtonPoetry


# 2: YOUTHSPEAKS. Similar to number 1.
https://www.youtube.com/user/YOUTHSPEAKS


# 3: Vsauce. He posts some pretty radical science stuff!
https://www.youtube.com/user/Vsauce


# 4: Rooster Teeth! I can't stress enough how AWESOME they are! They do Let's Plays, Achievement Hunters, they even made an animation called RWBY. It has a whole fandom, and just... DANG! Check it out, for sure!
https://www.youtube.com/user/RoosterTeeth


# 5: Markiplier! He posts all sorts of game playthroughs, and whatnot! Overall, he's HILARIOUS!
https://www.youtube.com/user/markiplierGAME


Now obviously, this isn't even CLOSE to a full list. I just wanted to give you guys a few choices that you probably haven't heard of! If you want some more suggestions, feel free to contact me!


Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

My Youtube Channel

Hey!~ So, in case you didn't know: I have my own Youtube channel! I sing covers, and post them for you guys to see. I haven't made a video in awhile, but that's because I don't  have access to my phone right now. (I use it to record) Here's the link: https://www.youtube.com/user/theatergirl325
Feel free to check it out, but PLEASE don't laugh! >/////////< I haven't really told many people about it, but I'm attempting to open up more. Anyways, I have about 6-7 videos up right now, and I'll post more whenever I can!
As always,
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

Freedom Of Speech: A Poem By Myself

Freedom of Speech
By: Abigail Rose (Me)


There're a thousand words to say,
But I just can't seem to find the courage.
How can I speak out,
When I'm too scared to be alone?
All my life,
I've had people by my side.
If my words cause them to go,
What happens then?
Do I just sit back and not say a word?
Is that really the person I want to be?
No; It isn't.
I want to feel free to speak my mind;
To let the words spill from my mouth.
I don't want to be some coward,
Who hides in the back corner.
I want to STAND UP.
To STAND OUT.
I vow to be my own person,
Even if it means going with the unpopular vote.
I've realized something:
I can always find new friends,
And I have a few who will never go.
So what's wrong with disagreeing sometimes?
Absolutely nothing, that's what.

I got my learners!~

Hey guys! Sorry for such a long break! I've been working on redoing my room, and I just haven't really thought about posting, to be honest. Anyways: I got my learners on March 25th! (My birthday ^_^) I've only driven on the road once, but my dad is teaching me whenever he gets the chance. I'm really excited about it!! It's so surreal, though. I can't believe that I'm actually old enough to drive! It's definitely something I'll have to get used to! Also: I'm going to try to post more of my poems here, ok? I've been told that I'm really good at writing poetry, and you all seem to enjoy them, so I'll post them as often as I can!

If you haven't noticed, I kinda abandoned the whole daily-outfit thing. My phone charger doesn't work anymore, and it's what I was using to post them. :( Once I save up enough to get my new phone, I'll start it back up! I'm trying to stop waiting so long in between posts, I promise! I'll attempt to post each day, even if I don't feel like it. Of course, some days I may be in a bad mood or sick, but I'll try to at least post something, even if it's short. Even so, thanks for keeping faith in me! I love seeing that you guys are still interested in reading my blog! It's really inspiring that I actually have people who WANT to hear what I have to say! Just...thanks SO much! Anyways, I love you guys!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3

Confessions

Hey, guys. You seem to all like my poetry, so here ya go:

Confessions:

When you look at me, what picture forms in your mind?
Is it one of hapiness, or one of fear?
If I'm really being honest, I'm not sure which one I'd rather show.
Do I let you see my hopes and ambitions?
Or do I hand you my secret fears, torn to shreds and covered in tears of long ago?
Which would you want...
The bubbly bright girl I usually am,
Or the demon who sometimes controls my very essence?
I'm not even sure that I /can/ show you.
After all I've lived through,
How could ANYONE possibly understand the fears I struggle with each day...
How could they see that even SPEAKING OUT ties my tongue and my heart in knots...
I'll never be the same person I was in my childhood...
At least...not until I finally break free of the chains that capture me so effortlessly.
For now, I'll always make sure that I don't seem vulnerable to people.
I'll still harden my heart, just to keep it from breaking.
I can only think of one person that I trust completely,
And only one other who has been told my story...
Surprisingly, she doesn't judge me. She doesn't try to patronize me like SO many have. She just...takes it as it is. She didn't ask me to tell her more, or threaten me.
I am...more than a little shocked by that.
Lately, I've been so worried about being judged, that instead of being open about things, I hide them away. I stumble over my words when I feel threatened or nervous...which is much more often than I'm proud of.
To my readers, I seem confident.
But secretly, I have my doubts, just like you all.
I'm not a perfect person, but...
I'm trying.
That counts for something, right?
I'm so, so glad that I have this..
My escape from the world.
I can speak my mind, without worrying about how I look to everyone.
Silly, I know.
I'm not good with talking to people about how I feel,
But here...it's easier.
When I can be seen, suddenly the words I want to say just flow from my fingers.
I'm invisible, yet bursting with color.
Thank you, for noticing me...
Even when I'm not actully there.

This has been on my mind for a while, but I just now got around to actually posting it. I just wanted to show that I'm not perfect, but I do my best. I hope this can help someone out. :)

Be A Butterfly!

Hello, everyone! :) I've been so busy lately, that I had completely forgotten to post anything! Many apologies, my friends! To make up for it, I'll make this post much longer!


So, guess what! For my Lit. class, I'm writing a 4-page research paper about bullying! :) I'm really excited about it! As far as I know, nobody else has the same topic as me! Wish me luck, everyone!
Also: This coming up Tuesday, my band is going to LGPE! (Large Group Performance Evaluation) Basically, we play our songs for a panel of judges, then they score us & tell us how we can improve. :) I'm really excited about going!


For those of you who've checked out my new blog, you know that I'm working on a new story. :) I'll post it as soon as possible! (The URL is outcrowdlifewriting.blogspot.com!) Check it out!


I wanted to remind everyone to be themselves. I know I say it a lot, but I'm serious. Be PROUD of who you are. Don't let others determine who you are, or what you do! A couple of my close friends are struggling with this, and I'm sure others are too. Think of it this way: Even the most beautiful butterflies, never see their wings. Just because you don't see how special you are, doesn't mean that you're nothing. We all shine in our own way, so don't be afraid to let your light glow. Be the type of person that you admire. Don't just sit in the back row, blending in.


As always, my fellow butterflies:
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley <3 <3 <3

Great News!

Hey! I just finished setting up my secondary blog! The url is: outcrowdwriting.blogspot.com! Check it out! I'll be posting here for the most part, but whenever I finish a story, I'll post it there! Keep an eye out!
Also: So sorry for the delay! I've been SO BUSY! I'll post a longer piece tonight, but I am so sorry! I've been loaded down with tons of homework, PLUS I have to work on a 4-page Research Paper. I chose bullying as a topic, so it should be really fun to work on! :)

I'll tell more later! Bye!
Stay Strong,
Stay Beautiful!
Abigail Gurley :)

Day #1!

Hey guys! So today I started the Daily-Outfit challenge today!

Day One:

So, here it is! Enjoy!

I don't really have much time to post today, so I'll post a longer one tomorrow!!
Goodnight, dears!

QOTD: You don't need anybody to tell you who you are or what you are. You are what you are! ~John Lennon

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley

What a NERD! Yep, that's ME!!

Hey guys! So I want to talk about something... I've been noticing that a TON of people are reading my blog, and I LOVE that! I mean...dang. For those of you who know what I've been through, you should that this is CRAZY big for me. For once, I have a way to share my voice. For once....people LISTEN to what I have to say. That is...amazing. I feel like here, on my blog, I can say what I'm too afraid to say anywhere else.

My friends who see me all the time, know I'm not exactly the most confident person. Even around the people I'm /best friends/ with, I get self-concious & shy. In my classes, I hardly ever talk. At church, youth-group, ANYWHERE...I'm practically silent. Mind you, my blog & all your love is helping, but you know what they say: old habits die hard. After all the bullying I went through, I kinda reached a point where I was afraid that people would make fun of me just for talking. I'm still not that great. If I'm talking to the teacher, I'm decent, but...having to talk in front of or to the people who made my life miserable? Forget it. I just...lock down.

I don't mean to make this post a Debby-Downer one, so...I'll lighten it up! Time for a story! First off, I want to say: YES. I am going to start the daily-outfit thing tomorrow!
Anyways, back to the story!
So, you know that one kid in class that is like, a JUMBO NERD? The one who always answers the questions, always is done with the work first, and it annoys everybody? Yea...that's me. Well, the main downside to it is that EVERYONE wants to copy my worksheet, once I'm done.
My mom gave me a GREAT idea: write the correct answers on a seperate sheet, then fill in all the wrong answers. If they copy it, they'll be completely wrong. Afterwords, I just erase the answers, and fill in the right ones!! Thanks, Mom!

Next bit of business: My contact page is up! Check it out! I would LOVE to hear from each & every one of you! Even if you don't wanna talk, you can follow me, and I'll follow you back! Thanks!

I hate to cut it short, but is past 10pm! Bedtime! I'll write a new post tomorrow, so stay in touch! I hope you all have a FABULOUS day tomorrow! Btw: I'm gonna start a new thing. At the end of each post, I'll put a quote of the day (QOTD)!!

Today's QOTD: I would rather die of passion than of boredom. –Vincent van Gogh
Have a lovely day, my friend! 

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley ^_^

Dear Classmates...

Hey Out-Crowders! So...I wanna get something off my chest...

To My Classmates Who Act Like I'm Not There:
Yes; I hear you talk about what I made on the test.
Yes; I /do/ talk. It's not my fault that you only listen when you need an answer for our class work.
Yes, I smile. I goof off, I act silly, I even sing.
But how would you know?
You don't bother me, but instead you act like I'm invisable, usually.
Sure, you'll talk to me occasionally, but only if you want to know something.
I never say no to anything you ask, because I don't want to make anyone upset.
As much as I like to pretend that I'm super-confident...I'm not. I'm actually reallly insecure. I worry about silly things, and I get nervous if I'm called on in class.
I'm not perfect...and neither are you.
So why don't we both agree...to stop playing pretend.

Sorry for getting kinda...deep. That's been on my mind. I know this isn't a very long post, but I'm super tired! Until tomorrow, lovelies!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley :)

Happy V-Day!!

Hello, once again! So since Valentines Day just passed, I wanted you all to know something. Whether you were 'single' or 'taken' this Valentines, you're loved!
I don't care if you have been reading my blog for months, or if you're a first-timer: I. Love. You. I care about all of you, even the people who don't usually read my blog.
I CARE about that test you're stressed about.
I CARE that you're being picked on.
I CARE that you need someone to talk to.

With that said, don't be afraid to come to me for help. I may not be an expert, but I can try. I'll do y very best to at least make you smile.
I love you guys.

Now: My best friend Amrin brought something to my attention. I have a fanbase! But...what do I call you? I suppose I should call you the Out-Crowders. ^_^ Well, for those of you who are new, welcome to the club! Here you won't be judged for how you look, who you love, the way you act, etc. I'll just love you. :)

So, I decided to make a list of 15 of my favorite songs. (In no order)
I'll try to only do 1 song from each artist. :)
1. Rockstar by Nickelback
2. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
3. Viva la Vida by Coldplay
4. Josey by Hey Monday
5. It Ends Tonight by All American Rejects
6. Demons by Imagine Dragons
7. Secrets by One Republic
8. Stand In The Rain by Superchick
9. Brighter Than The Sun by Colbie Caillat
10. Bully by Shinedown
11. According To You by Orianthi
12. I'm Not Dead by P!nk
13. Fighter by Christina Aguilera
14. King Of Anything by Sara Bareilles
15. I Love Rock N Roll by Joann Jett & The Blackhearts

These all come from my personal playlist, so...ta da! You now know some of my taste in music! Have a wonderful day, Out-Crowders!

Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
Abigail Gurley :)

Ps: If you scroll down to the bottom of my blog, you can see the current view-count!
Be sure to tell your friends about my blog! Thanks!

Contact Me!

Hey guys! So I have an idea! I'm going to start a series on pinterest & instagram that shows what I wear to school! Every day, (starting Monday) I'll take a picture of what I'm wearing & post it! :) That way you guys can see my style, and give comments! I'm expaning my style everyday, and I want you guys to go on this journey beside me! Let me know what you think! Also: I'll be putting up a Contact Me page soon, that shows you how to send in comments & stuff. I'll keep you posted!

So, raise your hand if  you are SICK of all the snow! Yeah. Me too! Sure, the first time was AWESOME, but know...I would rather be at school with my friends. It may just be my ADHD, but I get bored really quickly. *shrug* Hopefully I'm not the only one.

At any rate, I hope you've enjoyed the time off! I have, for the most part. I'll write more later, so stay in touch!

Stay Beautiful, Stay Strong
Abigail Gurley :)

A letter to my Readers :)

Dear Readers,

Hmm...that sounds a bit too formal...
Oh, well. I don't really have a "fandom name" for you guys. I suppose I could call you all the Out-crowders... hmm. I like that!
Alrighty then, well...

Dear Out-Crowders,
I just want you guys to know how much I love you all! I really love getting your feedback, and knowing that MY blog could help put a smile on your face! I know there are times when I don't post as much as I want to, but you guys still stick around!
I'm actually STILL in shock over how many people have read my blog, & how ,any people check it daily! Thank you all, so much!! :)

As a special treat, I want you guys to think of something you want me to do. It could be anything from a poem, a short story, another TBH,... ANYTHING you guys want! Just let me know. :)
Remember: you guys can email me at abbie.punkprincess@gmail.com !

That's all for now!

Stay Beautiful, Stay Strong!
Abigail Gurley :)

Snow Days!!

Hello everyone! So!~~ My boyfriend recently turned 15! He's two months older than me, so for a little while he's allowed to brag about it. :) Also: I've gotten into writing again! I know, I know. I write blogs a lot, but now I'm getting back into writimg stories! I'm currently working on a few different ones. If I write any short stories, I might post them here. :)

I've decided that EVERY DAY I'm goimg to try to at least post SOMETHING. It could be just a poem or two, or it could be a really long post. It kinda deps on how much homework I have!

Question Time!! I want to answer a few questions that I've gotten, & I also want to encourage you guys to ask me questions!

Q: What inspired you to start your blog?
A: Good question! As some of you know, I went through a really bad amount of bullying. I figured, if I show people that I overcame it, then it will give them hope. I want people to see that even though I was picked on, I still wear what I want, act like myself, & live my life the way I want.

I haven't really gotten many questions yet! Please, send them in! Whether it's on facebook, here, or my email, I'll reply! Let that feedback roll in! After all, I KNOW you guys read my blog, and you seem to like it!

Story Time~~
So, if you live in the South, you know we got a good bit of snow last week! I built a little snowman, had snowball fights, and I fell on my butt a few times! :) Let me just say, only in the South can we see 4 seasons in 2 days!

I don't really have time to write more! I only wrote this because I woke up about an hour ago, and I felt like writing! I'm going back to sleep, but I'll post more later!

Stay Beautiful, Stay Strong
With all my love,
Abigail Gurley ^_^

YAY! Tumblr!

Hello everyone! I haven't posted in a while, so I figure I should hurry up and post this! Unfortunantly, I am at home sick. I have a fever & tbh...I feel like crap. XC
I'm going to the doctor later, so maybe that will help.

Anyways, I have a new story idea!! I'm thinking about writing a story where an insane woman falls for her doctor, but in the end she realizes that he is a figment of her imagination! Cool, right? I hope you guys will enjoy it! I'll post it here when I finish it.

So, lately I've REALLY gotten into Sci-Fi books! They are so neat to me! I love the idea of human hybrids, aliens, zombies, etc. It really intrigues me!! Btw you guys: I'm finally on Tumblr as an active user! My Tumblr name is: theatergirl325. :)

Also: you guys should check out my Youtube channel!! I haven't posted in a while, since my phone charger is messed up, but I have about 6 videos up. Let me know what you think! PLUS: I'm thinking about making a second blog! I want to make one just for my gamer side. I'll post videogame reviews, debate who I think would win in different fights, etc. I'll let you know when I get it up.

Well. I can't think of anything else at the moment! Keep in touch!
Stay strong,
Stay beautiful.
Abigail Gurley ^_^

25 TBH (New)

1. I am CRAZY about Amrin Houston <3
2. I am 14, but apparently I have an 'old soul'.
3. I. Am. A Nerd.
4. Book Worm!
5. *whispers* I really like Country music...
6. I love story-writing, even though it's not a 'real career'. Psh. It's a career if I want it to be!
7. I have so many cousins, that I haven't even met half of them...and they all live close-ish to me...
8. I LOVE old movies!
9. My favorite movie is The Phantom of The Opera, followed by Titanic!
10. I have a strange addiction to Cheese-Puffs covered in Nutella...
11. I have been in a committed relationship for nearly 2 years, and I REALLY wanna marry this guy someday... ^_^
12. My favorite Ice-Cream flavour is Mint-Chocolate Chip! <3 Yum!
13. Eminem is my BY FAR favorite rapper.
14. I like 80's songs more than modern music...
15. I don't how to dougie...or twerk...AND I AM PROUD.
16. My room is more girl-ish than I act XD But, I love it!
17. David Tennant <3 (Whovians will understand)
18. Pepperoni is like AIR to me...
19. I love kid cartoons/movies!
20. I am perfectly happy being myself <3 and yet, I have 0 stage-presence...I'm working on that, though!!
21. My fashion style is exactly that...MINE
22. I. AM. NOT. A. SHEEP/
23. Apparently I am a relationship-advice go-to person??
24. I have a handful of close friends, but I love each and every one of them!
25. TBH...I love my viewers! Thanks so much for the support!

Happy New Year! Already, The Drama Has Begun! :(

Hello, yet again!! So... Happy New Year, everyone! I don't really have an official 'resolution', so tell me some of yours! I'd love to hear from you all!! I had a WONDERFUL Christmas, how about you all? I got the one thing I wanted, (Nook HD+) and more!!

Anyways, so as the topic of today: Completely NOT Necessary Drama! So, everyone is starting to get off the whole 'New Year, New Me' hype, so the drama of everyday high-school & Life has returned....oh joy. I have heard some NASTY comments passed back and forth over the past few weeks!!
I mean, c'mon guys! We're all people, so why bother being mean? Besides, some day ll of us will grow up, get married, live our lives, and NONE of this will matter. Me? I try to make the best of every day. Feeling sad? I plan an EPIC sleep-over with my besties, or I spend the day over at my boyfriend's house, watching movies, and playing games. I try to make the best of all situations, because I know how...fleeting, life can be; I've seen too many of my friends...leave...forever.

For those of you who don't know: A really FANTASTIC friend of mine, named Holly Moore died on November 3rd...
I miss her more than I've ever missed something. We were really close, and I used to see her at least once a week, if not more. She was murdered by Cervical Cancer, after battling it for 4 years...I love her SO much, and I really wish I had told her more often. We weren't related or anything, but she was like a second mom to me, you know?

Anyways, because of that, I try to remember that my life could change ANY minute. I try to push past negative stuff, and find something positive. That's why seeing all this hate flutter around like paper butterflies in the wind, drives me crazy! What could have happened to someone to make them be so cruel?
Sorry...
...
This is getting rant-like...
ANYWAYS
On a happier note: I finally saw The Avengers! A little late, I know, but my boyfriend and I watched it together Saturday! It was EPIC!
Anyhooo...
This post is getting a little long, so goodbye, my fellow Prince and Princesses!
Stay Strong,
Stay Beautiful <3
Abigail Gurley <3